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Caught a cold from the damp futon and couldn’t get up -- I said he needs a hospital and they had
The week before he went in the ambulance:
Thought I meant two days detox somewhere and then ship him to a treatment place. T. was on
Unbelievably, C.F. sent me an email for the first time since 1999, when we broke.
With her?) -- and I was feeling it. He was pissed at the squash coach for calling and he’d go to
Haircut that turned out looking like Ben Franklin’s hair, and now it was dirty and matted. His friend,
That I wait until he wakes up before I sign a lease in St. Paul. If he’s in treatment as the experts
Was wandering the street waiting for liquor stores to open in the snow; the doctor called for the
I had bought him beer to get off vodka. Another friend in VT was checking into programs for him
Where T. at one point had told me to get a place -- his grandfather’s territory. My sister advised
I don’t blame him for these details. I just want him to become well again. That’s it.
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We stripped him he/paramedics got there and/the maid arrived the/ambulance his sister called/their treatment place, maybe/to go back to/years ago he wanted/in treatment a few/w/ and met
A.Q. just visited T. in the ICU, and his eyes were open, but he didn’t seem to
The futon talking to his other girlfriends -- C. and S. (the alcoholic, violent one he’d lived
Thanks, A -- I had just called, too. Can you tell me something about the surgery, whenever you
You, “don’t you want to change your pants?” And he said, “I smell fine.” I had given him a home
Happy holy days, she wrote.
His lungs. One lung is working less well than the other.
The Yale squash coach, was calling every few hours and literally coaching me to buy him vodka to
Learned on Sat. a.m. that he had pneumonia and was having the surgery.